Showing posts with label prayer requests. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prayer requests. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Trying to focus

My husband and I came to the realization last night that I have to scale back my participation on renovating the new house. This sucks. Sorry, but I'm really disappointed. I do agree with him 100%, but it doesn't make it any less frustrating. I really want to help get our new home ready and be a partner in the remodel, but I will have to do it in a different way.

I've been having a couple of teenage girls watch the baby for a couple of hours every day, whenever possible, and then spending that time working at the new house. The problem is that it sometimes takes me all day to get ready to go to the house, or assemble all the materials because I am doing it with 4 little kids under foot either at home or at the new house. I have to work around the baby's nap times, when I can get the most done, but sometimes that doesn't happen until the late afternoon, which puts a real crimp in dinner plans. I still have to prepare all our meals, and my home is really suffering because I don't have the time to seriously clean it, since I'm always preparing to be gone. Basically, everything is getting partially done, but very poorly! This has caused a lot of frustration for me and for my husband, who is working all day and then putting in a few hours at the new house and is not being taken care of as well as he should be. Failing at everything is miserable.

I'm a little resentful right now, so pray for me. Not just about the house, but also about our extended family dynamics, concerning child care. I know that I shouldn't be so mad, and that the Lord has called me to a different kind of job than my husband's. My family would be best served by a mother who is home to feed everyone and keep the home in order, especially during this very chaotic process of moving and renovating. It will also give me time to pack and purge, a job unto itself. Pray that I will have the grace to be the support and not the lead on this project, and that I will find satisfaction in meeting goals of a different kind. And keep my husband in prayer - he is working long hours and mostly by himself. Safety is a top priority right now.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Food for thought

I'm sorry if I come off uppity or critical when I discuss the food I feed my family. I don't want to offend anyone or cause them to feel any animosity or self-doubt. It's definitely not an area that I would call my self an expert in. I eat junk. I take my kids to those golden arches and teach them that there is nothing quite like the combination of french fries and ice cream. I am guilty of letting my kids have goodies WAY more often than is healthy for them.

On the other hand, I do take nutrition seriously. I consider it to be a part of my job, as a mother and wife. I want my family to thrive, to have the best health possible and I sincerely believe that starts with nutrition and what we put into our bodies. For me, it is a journey. It's something that I want to do my best at, even though I will slip occasionally. It is part of the legacy that I can pass on - to eat well and feel well. More than that, I need this personally.

Early in my childhood, nutrition was my mother's focus. She gave us locally raised goat's milk instead of grocery store milk. She fed us oatmeal or other whole grains for breakfast. Juice was a really big treat at our house because we never had it around! Candy? Not likely. It was more like honey sticks and citrus candies from the health food store. We were happy and we were healthy. Sometime around the early years of elementary school, my mom went back to work full time, probably about the time my youngest brother entered school. Things changed, like they will when both parents are working and food needs to be prepared faster and easier. For me, I think this had a lot to do with my gradual weight gain around that age. Coupled with the stress of my parent's fighting, it could be the cause of many of my eating habits that have carried me through adolescence and now adulthood. I don't want to fault my parents, but there is some reason that I am the only child out of 4 who has ever had a serious weight problem. Anyway....

I could go on and on about why I feel spiritually lead to eat better, what the implications are for a biblically diet, but the point of this was to apologize. I don't expect everyone else to eat how my family eats or let it become a point of contention between us. I hope that you understand and know that I am sincerely sorry if this has happened. Peace

Romans 15:13